new year? new me?

New year? New me?

as the title says this is about that saying how long have we heard that or have we been saying that I will admit I have said those words myself but the more I think what those words really mean because plenty of people have said those and behold there still the same and worse of all they became the least better version of themself but that's all about perception I might see it as bad but they might see it as good people can sometimes see what they only want to see and that a bad thing for themselves and all around them so back to people saying that new year new me I mean is it the only time a people can change i mean they had a whole year to see themselves change but suddenly they think a single day they can make that of course not.  I am not putting anyone down but change is a long thing not just a magic word then poof they change I make this point as I myself is trying to better myself yup is all back to that I am speaking in self-experience that has been happing to me yes perhaps it is a magic word but only when you have the courage and determination to provide this endeavor and maybe new year can be a really big step for a new you.

How long has it been?

So how has it been I just been putting up vids but I guess its time for me to put some words out there and an update to my life it has been fun actually more than I thought it was going to be I have been following my own advice on becoming something better and it is actually more work but the work is really rewarding yes I admit the money is kind of slow but there are more rewards than money and that is the experience I am getting is really fun well horny as well looking for those vids must be really slow and for my other sources it has been good as well since the last time of my planning of creating my own income I have almost got it all back so it means I am starting to gain it back I actually didn't realize it I just have been enjoying the ride of happiness that I have of course not every day is a happy day there are times that i just want to dump it all again but i think what will happen to all the hard work I already put on it so i think of all the beneifits and negatives and carry on so thats the finacial side of things next is love life which i dont have any hahahaha not because i am looking for its just i have been trying to improve myself first all of my past realtionships i have been always at my worst and it ends up in heart break i dont want that to the person i want to be with i want them to have best i can be and hopefully they can be also be the best they can be as i tell you i have been with people who are the worst they can be they leach things out of you not only finacially but also energy wise i mean why do want to be around always negative and controling they act as if they own you and more worse like they belive that i owe them something for choosing me and i should let them step on me yups done with that bull so no love life, for now, more on self so next is what has happend nothing much i finish another course of languange will be learning to drive and swim nxt yes in my age i dont have both of those skills but you know what they say about life its a learning exprience.

Thanks for reading have a great day