What the world is happening right now

Still until now I can’t still find a new home for my vids so it’s kind of sad and stressful but I will still keep going on so my besides that nothing much new has happened and still learning some new stuff I have learned many things during this time hopefully I can use it but now things are not that okay less okay to some people but I thank I am in the good side of whoever decides this, I feel like it’s going to be something else they say learn and be more mindful of opportunities but sometimes not everything given to you is amazing but taking a chance is a wonderful thing but I feel not sure about it,  should I get it or not?

 this is hard times so any job will be amazing but also my heart is not into it I need to fool myself for it and because of that there are these gut feelings saying no and my mind saying yes fighting each other. I should get it for the financial sense and don’t get it because other opportunities might come better than this so many paths to take but what is the right one such is a life I only hope that another opportunity will come my way to let me know that this not the only way the heavens know right now I need divine intervention.

In the home front thing happing it’s kind of something my mom miss my grandma very much and worries about her and then my grandma doest trust her help so she always others take out which bad since my grandma is 80 years old and the maid is complaining as my grandma is being a very difficult and if her help leaves her we can’t do anything because of the COVID and my grandma will complain that her kids leaving her all alone so see it’s a no-win for my mom,  so my mom always ask the helper not to leave our grandma and the cycle continues this Chinese crap is doing a real number to this world I hope karma will be  a big one on that.

That’s what new to me thanks for visiting

over stress or ghost visit

In our times today we have been so prone to stress because of this pandemic we are not our best self, I will tell you a story that has happened to me just last week I tell this because I believe it might be supernatural in nature or just my tired brain playing tricks on me.

I just had a long day even when we are forced to stay at home we still need to get out to do stuff at most but mostly  to remove the feeling we are stuck  and for me it is the worst one yet, So back to my story I just had a long day but I still need to finish some work to save energy I turned off the light the only light in my room was my  laptop so while I was typing I notice something in the corner of my eye it was a shadow not my stuff but a person standing in the corner but it was weird because he or whatever it was standing behind the table.

I stopped typing and look at it more closely but making sure it won’t notice me whatever it was I stared at it for a while then I was forced to blink and then it was gone, Just putting it because of overwork I saved what I was doing and went to sleep.

I suddenly felt my room feeling a lot colder like the cold is inside your body I look around and it was pitch black I tried to move my body but it wasn’t moving like I was stuck in a place I can only move my eyes so I scan the room what was happing I was forcing myself to relax and not to panic I was thinking this must just a dream.

Then my eyes adjusted to the darkness and standing at the foot of my bed was the shadow it was clearly a silhouette of a man but it was just shadow it was like a two dimensional drawing just standing there I can clearly see the flatness of it then I saw its hand reaching towards me and the shadow hand moving across my body and when it reaches my neck it began squeezing it I felt being light-headed.

Then suddenly I woke up and realized it was a just a nightmare but I was sure what I felt, Thankful I was able to move my body again, Curious to what has startled me awake the I heard a loud scratching at my door I stood up and opened it was my dog waiting outside my door and waltz in and slept near the place where the shadow was standing I extremely thanked full of my dog it must felt something was wrong in my room and made sure I was okay.

I petted my dog and he just looked at me and made himself comfy in the spot I laid down but still fear it might come back I tried not to sleep but I was exhausted and before I knew I fell asleep again.

I woke the next morning thank full that it didn’t happen again I looked around my the door was already open my mom must have let the dog out already but I promised myself to also let the dog sleep and my room and offer a prayer of thanks and protection so it might never happen again.

Some things are not meant to be

So it has come to my attention that my youtube channel has been removed and that means all my vids that upload here as well are gone its a sad day I put a lot of effort on those things I guess they do have a point those vids did break their guidelines and that is why I have decided to just re-upload them all in here and post them again here where the guidelines are much more lenient I may not earn money from here yet as most of it was generated from youtube but at least here I can post it again without fear of it being removed so after I post this one I will post some of the old vids that I have two in one day for fun I guess we can call it that also for manga yaoi lovers as well I am not really a writer, to be honest none of my family knows this which is good I have plenty of stuff here for them to give a solid reason giving me a gift before 500 pesos which is small already so enough about the sadness of today time for new stuff and things