IN BETWEEN!!! Nov.23

Good day or evening to you life is said to have ups and down and that's a basic thing of life I guess but my life right now is in between I guess because its hell week as in so much work and overlapping deadlines but that's normal thing in college life and my grades are not that good like trying to climb up in a hazard slope but I need to reach the end or at least the top of it without fail but its harder than it seems and the good thing to it is that I am getting better at it my discipline is getting better i now study and I keep My schedule and my relationship with my bf is the best right now so I guess I am in between good and bad because there is always bad in good things and there are sometimes bad in good things hope you learned something till next time.

Sleeping problems!! Nov.24

Hello you reader so I have been having sleeping problems as in I can't sleep very well and i don't get tired easily wich is some what a good thing except when your trying to sleep I guess living a healthy life style gives to much energy and doing nothing with that energy is a a problem so I decided to make my self tired by watching DVDs and youtube and sometimes reading things off the net but all have the same effect still makes me not sleepy so today I decide to post this of hoping that while I write this blog I will get the idea of how to solve this and I was rigth because before I was just waiting for me to get sleepy but what if I try the most basic of all ideas do the first thing that everybody suggest which is lie down and close your eyes and think of nothing ness it was obvious that I didn't see its importans I guess you do learn from everything you do as long as you let it so that all and good night ;) I should post more pics.

DEATH VISITS NOV19!!!

It has been some time since I posted I actually felt that I would never post again but something came to my mind I should post something this is a place after all were I can put all my thoughts with out being judge because its not famous hahaha but that's just fine with me. In the recent time death have visited my family in three occasion which are not joyful because its common sense not to be hey when a person dies right? So the first one was the death of my father he died because of cancer in the liver which we warned him if kept abusing his body but like all dads or men he had pride and look were it got him but during his last days he asked for all our forgiveness and tried to get back at as and tried to be a good father at least he tried right?  The second one was my brother almost dying by trying to kill himself we are not 100% sure the reason was or my mom knows but is not telling us ether way it's there to keep we don't want another incident like that so we are keeping an eye on him. The third but not the least only happened very recently was the death of my grand father he died because of old age of 90 he lived a full life left a legacy for the younger generation to follow but it quicken his death brace of my father going first which made him weak he was a strong willed and highly intelligent person maybe losing as child is painfully Than I thought that it would make you semi crazy already or just very forgetful maybe they rest in peace. Maybe I should post again so see you around till I have something to share byes

REMINDER TO ME!!! Oct 3

Days comes and so does months I write here again to share my feelings and thoughts about almost everything I feel I should write so I wouldn't forget so here goes.
My life has been pretty okey I guess or messed up but in my standards is okey compare to this my graduation  years are fast approaching but yet I havent done anything yet I have plans but almost not al of them are not going well and not even progress even if I try I only wish that the future is better.
So I am currently taken I love him and I hope that he loves me to I am doing my best in both love and  life speaking of love I wish my mom would find herself a love life so that's what's up have a good day and peace.

Aug 16 long times and hopes

My days since the last post was kind of okey my schooling kind of bad I dropped my prinac 3 because I am shitty in accounting literally I don't know a thing about it I should just have finished it but that's all In the past so today our class was finished early I have written two new short story which needs still a little editing and fixing I want to write a novel or something like that and i need a new pic that's for sure so tonight I am going to drink because last week my mom didn't allowed it and everything I want hmmmp but this time I will get it my mom and I went to the dentist the other day to have my teeth check and to cleaning plus making plans for brace which will be done in oct or before so that's good news and after that my relation with Lester is in a I don't know phase and my ex is a major cheater and a liar of course I will need to hunt him down sooner or later hahaha I will droit in the lest excepted way that will be fun for sure but now i will need to get resources for me to get rich and with that I can make many things happen before I turn 25 I want 3 things which I hope I will get in the future first a graduation and stable job and a business and a partner for life so  so that when I am 30 I plan to do many things but still uncertain so that it hope it will continue to go my way wish me luck and have a great day I will post ASAP.

Aug 10 new ends and old beginnings!!!

Good day it has been two days since I posted I was sure I double checked making this my diary was not really best idea because I am not usually motivated to post so this in a basis on which I am feeling it or not I hope I find the motivation so the title says I planing to end something  which was being a little lazy I plan to finish all my school work now that's a good thing right so recently I found out my bf was using me for money sucks right he has shown any concern towards me only asking I should have realized that in the beginning but I was two kind i want to change my country but how it's to big so why not start with one self right and work up wards for me and my future I want to change all aspects of me starting from my physical mental and I little bit of. Emotional I just need a drive for me to continue what I want so I guess I will be looking at organizations on which I can help but first me time I need the disciple to do all of the things needed to be done I little about me I drop already my prinac 3 I know it's a cowards way I really don't know about accounting so I hope I can do it again  next term I will have a date Tom wish me luck other than that its all just disame I know my life needs excitement well that all for now thanks.

Aug 2 PDCA!!!

hello i just learned this just a while ago it about the PDCA of Edward deming its a process which we do everyday and we don't even realize it or it just me so PDCA stands for planing,doing, checking and acting see even by just looking at it its so obvious but i am still going to explain it so planing is the beginning of it before we do anything we plan right we do the 5 W or was it 4 anyways we do that we have a goals and ways to achieve that goal with minimum lost and great results that all our plan but to achieve that great result we need the check our actions and how we do it we do not do the checking after achieving our goals we do it while trying to achieve it so every step we are sure that we are in the right path and when there is a need of change do it in the most lest way possible so if its a mistake it wont affect the process so much and when all is done we act upon it and your thinking if you read it this far ahead what is the difference of doing and acting   acting if the finishing act after the checking is done where you decide whether to do that method again or do a even better way or just dumping it and start a new so hope this is a good one and yes i don't believe in periods have a good day ^_^