Up and Down my life right now

 

 

 

 

            So yeah i don't know my life is a wonky mess sometimes its up and sometimes its down just like what the title said, i don't have really time to enjoy much  or maybe that just me i feel like i am just in survival mode i want to try living mode maybe its just a crazy dream of mine to but things and not look at the price tag anymore maybe in this year or the next 5 i don't know there is a lot of i don't know in my life anymore or the things i think that i know isn't what it really is, i feel lonely sometimes and that make s me vulnerable  to decision that are bad as hell i try to ignore it how can thing that connect people so much make me feel lonely i miss my bebe but what i want most is a gang monthly or outings and such maybe i am reading so much stories i mean i want an adventure a real one i want to see and try new stuff yeah i want those and to share it maybe that what i really want to live like really living i am sick of just looking at it at a far i want to do more to my life i want happy memories to look back too not just day to day boring mess those are good too but life should be done to living not just surviving maybe that why i am so sad i feel incomplete yeah i should work on that well this made me feel good thanks for letting me rant here i feel good about this and the next steps i will take.

Aristotle and Dante discover the secret of the universe A book and the movie

This book is one of favorites its about two boys mostly Aristotle a Mexican-american his life and the struggle he has about himself and what it means to be a Man and his relationship with dante its a fun read , i recommend reading the book first before the movie it has some moments but it doesn't capture the feelings in my opinion.

 Here are some images to hopefully convince you to read and watch it 

here is the movie link

 

 https://moviebox.ph/moviedetail/aristotle-and-dante-discover-the-secrets-of-the-universe-arVnpA0laa8?id=6852023180727829328&scene=&page_from=search_detail&type=/movie/detail

 

enjoy  ^-^

 

alien planet prince ch 3(yaoi)(MXM)#yaoi #gay #manwha

 

Kim PyeongBeom is an ordinary person who lives a common life, but one day an alien with the appearance of a teddy bear lands in his room! From that moment on, he will accept that intercultural exchange with BR, the fifth prince of Planet KKRY… But how will he end up becoming the prince’s sex education manager too?

alien planet prince ch 2(yaoi)(MXM)#yaoi #gay #manwha

 

Kim PyeongBeom is an ordinary person who lives a common life, but one day an alien with the appearance of a teddy bear lands in his room! From that moment on, he will accept that intercultural exchange with BR, the fifth prince of Planet KKRY… But how will he end up becoming the prince’s sex education manager too?

the alien plant prince (yaoi)(MXM)(manwha)

 

Kim PyeongBeom is an ordinary person who lives a common life, but one day an alien with the appearance of a teddy bear lands in his room! From that moment on, he will accept that intercultural exchange with BR, the fifth prince of Planet KKRY… But how will he end up becoming the prince’s sex education manager too?

coexistence Ch3( man x man)(Yaoi Manhwa)

 

coexistence Ch2

 

coexistence Ch1( man x man)(Yaoi Manhwa)

https://youtu.be/EZxQQX2byg8

coexist BL manga ch1

 

my roommate is a cat ep 3

 

my roommate is a cat ep 2

 

my roommate is a cat ep 1

 

second video from the past

a little vid from my collection enjoy

How long has it been?

So how has it been I just been putting up vids but I guess its time for me to put some words out there and an update to my life it has been fun actually more than I thought it was going to be I have been following my own advice on becoming something better and it is actually more work but the work is really rewarding yes I admit the money is kind of slow but there are more rewards than money and that is the experience I am getting is really fun well horny as well looking for those vids must be really slow and for my other sources it has been good as well since the last time of my planning of creating my own income I have almost got it all back so it means I am starting to gain it back I actually didn't realize it I just have been enjoying the ride of happiness that I have of course not every day is a happy day there are times that i just want to dump it all again but i think what will happen to all the hard work I already put on it so i think of all the beneifits and negatives and carry on so thats the finacial side of things next is love life which i dont have any hahahaha not because i am looking for its just i have been trying to improve myself first all of my past realtionships i have been always at my worst and it ends up in heart break i dont want that to the person i want to be with i want them to have best i can be and hopefully they can be also be the best they can be as i tell you i have been with people who are the worst they can be they leach things out of you not only finacially but also energy wise i mean why do want to be around always negative and controling they act as if they own you and more worse like they belive that i owe them something for choosing me and i should let them step on me yups done with that bull so no love life, for now, more on self so next is what has happend nothing much i finish another course of languange will be learning to drive and swim nxt yes in my age i dont have both of those skills but you know what they say about life its a learning exprience.

Thanks for reading have a great day

the magic rituals results so far

so the result on the three which kind of weird I have read that fate really matter in these things but I think my actions have to do in it as well.
first, of the love spell, I will completely say that it doesn't work my love life is still nothing maybe it will take time but so far no advancement so next one is the luck well I got to say I got lucky not that much but improvements can be seen but then again maybe having this luck spell just motivates me more to do stuff I haven't tried before so I should call not a luck increasing ritual but a confidence-boosting thing as the saying goes what will you do when you know you wouldn't fail so yup I guess it is a workable thing and the last one is the money ritual to these I think its a psychological thing as you always want to have money in your wallet seeing only a few pesos it makes you want to add more and set a boundary for it like for me i make sure that my wallet always have a 100 pesos inside of it not for spending unless for super emergencies its just because thinking that you must have that and turns into a habit I have been doing it for almost a week and i always save more as I always empty my wallet end of the day and buget it again in the beginning of it so all the extra will just be more saving if this is real magic then so be it so in all I think ritual and spells are things that are really moved by beliefed but beliving in yourself and make your action more then it used to be I think thats the real magic so because of this I want to try more spells and maybe do some card reading it might but not real magic but it is still an amazing thing to try.

thank you for reading

Testing magic spells my experience does it work or not

Rituals and magic spells
I have read much about them so I decided to see if they really work according to common knowledge for a so-called spell or ritual to work there are two things that are important first they must have full knowledge of the spell conditions and the other one is belief in it as I think that were its power really come from the belief of the ritual spell user so for starters I am not a practitioner of any kind of spells so this really new to me so I am not a believer of it so I only used the common spells that have easy rituals the basic one about love, money, and luck as these are the most used and commonly used i downloaded an app for my phone in this use and researched the net for some of it as well what I found that there are many differences on actions to do the ritual so used the easiest one I could do in a short amount of time for the love I used a red candle  burning some herbs  in the full moon prayed to the element or spirits but according to guide it will most usefull when praying to your patreon god or goddes since I dont have those and the ash of the herbs be kept on a blessed sack I got to say the herb smelled nice so i kept it in my bag as the guide said nxt one is the money spell amazingly this just involves a silver coin prayed and be always kept on my wallet and never be spend accourding to the guide it will make money more attarcted to me and the last but not the least is the luck i this involes a crystal glass coins some cinemon and some kind of powder  and of course herbs its actualy just tinking of luck to come while I mix it and appartnly I have to do this monthly.

I can't really say the results but in a week i might as all of these spells says that you will have results in a week luckily its already Friday so i will know the effects exactly nxt Friday.

thanks for reading have a great day.

Children hospital

Children's Hospital
By: ME 

This story is about a nurse in a Children's hospital lets call the nurse Jasmine. it was Friday and she got the night shift and during those time commute was horrible but she had a duty and endured it during the ride she felt uneasy and suddenly sad she didn't know why so she ignored it and went her way t work.
When she got there she immediately prepared and to her patient, Her patient was a 9 years old girl named Mary and she got leukemia she has been in the hospital for over two years now and it seemed there was no sign of her getting better. 
When Jasmine was to enter the room she heard Mary talking to someone it was like Mary asking a permission Jasmine thought maybe it was just one of Marys relative but when she entered mary was alone Jasmine immediately asked  Mary if there was someone here Mary should no one with a big Smile on Her face that is what Jasmine liked about Mary even in the Face death she was strong the kid hated pity even in pain her happy nature never disappeared.

Ate Jasmine can you help me take a stroll i feel stuffy in this room she asked with a smile
i agreed i took the wheelchair and  we took a stroll in the hospital wings where she can see the garden and some sunlight while i was pushing her the wheelchair seems to be getting cold as each step it was getting colder but it didn't seem to affect her then she began talking Jasmin i want to thank you, 
thank me for what Jasmine asked for being here you never pitied me you are the only person that seems to understand me you truly are my best friend i think my only friend i was dumbfounded at what she was saying she was very serious at what she was saying and she removed her necklace and gave it to me saying this is the most prized possession that i have  it was supposed to take of me it didnt woke maybe it will work for you i as now speachless i took it and said maybe your mom will want this she shook her head tell her that i am giving it to you  when  we were at the biggest window  she told me she was thirsty but before i go she held my hand and squeeze it firmly looking at me with those happy eyes now seems filled with a hint of saddness and she let go as i went to the nurse station and got a glass of water when i retured she looked like she fell as sleep but i notice  she wasnt breathing i drop the galss of water and tried to wake her up i called for the other nurses.

She died  i heard her parent loud howls of sadness i hid in the nurses living quarters the moment i left her she felt her time was coming she was saying goodbye i couldn't stop my tears from falling i asked the heavens why was such a good kid like her had to die a girl that never experience life, While i was crying i felt a coldness in the room but it was a comforting cold i knew it that it was her and maybe the thing that she was asking permission was Death she was asking permission to say goodbye to me i wiped my tears and stood up i cant let her see me like this i held the necklace that she has given to me tightly promising life like hers a person who even in the face of death can still smile and give happiness to others.

I walked out the room with the small comfort knowing she isn't suffering anymore and promise myself to be like her to live my life happily that someday when it is my time i can happily meet death with a smile.  

things to be thankful for

 Things to be thankful for i have chosen this topic as lately the world is somewhat in a bad place this extremely shown to in my public rides that people keep on complaining I know its good to let the negative out but  people  there are so much to be thankful for so here is a list that people forgot to be thankful.-


1. opportunity
for me, I think this is one of the people should be thankful for most people don't have what you have and you have that opportunity to do something great to it as all I hear is how hard this work the people are difficult and customers are so demanding but they don't thank the job itself if they don't like it then they should leave it many people are lining up to et what you have

2. the world itself
in other world nature, people are so busy that they don't stop and smell the flowers around them they forget all positive of just looking around in the park it will calm the mind and might get your thoughts to different things just relax and thank the gods for the world itself.

3.friend and family
this one is self-explanatory we get distracted with our everyday lives we forget to thank them for being part of our life, time and time again I see and hear people that they wish they said certain things to people that they care for at the end of those peoples lives so take time and tell these people what you meant to them before it is too late.

4. ourselves
Yes when was the last time we thanked our selves we are always thinking of other things in our life we forgot about our selves ask a person what are the things they love or what's important to them rarely we forgot to say ourselves there's nothing with a little self-love but some people have none of that we often forget our lives are built upon  challenges that were set before we must not forget to look back and see how far we got all the things we managed to do there is nothing wrong with a little love and thankfulness dot forget we are what we had to pass so love oneself as who can we really say that we love him/her


yup these are the thing that I am thankful for hope this helped thank you and have a great day.

goodbye my pupper

goodbye my pupper

A sad day has come as a valued member of my family has died or pet dog has died because of blood poising due to the infection caused by lice we did all we can do to save him but are efforts were not enough we sent him to the vet as his meds weren’t working anymore the doctor told as there was a chance that he might recover but it was a small chance still any chance would be better than no chance at all but I guess luck was not on our side  as he died this morning around 7am to start with I was not feeling well myself so it was a double downer. As these moment happen I feel regret and sadness we felt we could have done more to save him but that’s all that is now just regrets he lived a short life I remember his final days as he still tried to walk towards me to welcome me home he still wagged his tale excitedly as he struggled to walk I went to him instead pat him and give him dog snacks after eating he would just curl back to his space and rest it sadden me to see him that way at these time I still remember when he was brought home he was barely 2 years old still a curious little puppy peeing everywhere and trying to go other sofas and un reachable places but will cry when stuck and when I walked him and he would try to run around and fight with stray cats and when they would fight back he would hide behind my legs and in my down days I would talk to him about my frustrations and he would just stare at me I don’t know if he understood but being him there brought me comfort the only thing positive I see that happened in this event that at least he wasn’t in pain anymore my wish for him that I brought him comfort the way he brought as comfort by being there. Goodbye a little pupper , good bye my little guardian we will miss you all dearly

Thank you for reading and hope you have a better day then me

Pet love may 19

Doodle Says Goodbye

this a story that i found in http://www.yourghoststories.com/real-ghost-story.php?story=25141 its a about a owner talking about his pet dog saying good bye 

This is not a scary ghost story but a "reaching across the veil story"

This last Friday (Nov.10) after 4 months from discovering a bad heart murmur in my dog Tinker, (aka, Doodle, Mutt Thing)

The time had come to end her suffering and extreme difficulty in breathing. As my wife and daughter had to be at work I Spent the day holding and talking to her as the hour approached for the vet to come to the house. 

I held her until theVery end as the best pal I ever had left my side. Telling her it was OK to go, she left. I sat holding her another 2 hours

Afterwards. Needless to say it was the worst 2 hours of my 58 years. I finally pulled it together enough to prepare her

For burial in the flower bed.

My wife Kim, NEVER remembers her dreams, NEVER. In 27 years together she has been able to recall maybe 2 dreams she has had. For some reason she just doesn't have dream recall.

On Sunday morning she awoke very excited and told me she had a dream of Doodle that she remembered with crystal clarity.

So much so she wondered if it was a dream even though she knew it was. In her dream she said she was looking up and saw

A cloud in the not so far distance. On the edge of the cloud was Doodle looking at her. What she remembered the most was the way she looked and behaved. Her ears were perked up, her tail was wagging and she looked so very very happy and healthy.

She would run away like she wanted Kim to follow. When Kim didn't follow she would come back to the edge and start her happy

Wagging and stuff all over again.

 After a few times of this she finally ran on off with tail wagging like the happiest little

Pup in the world.

Of course this was just most likely a dream built on my wife's hopes for Doodle. But we both also agree and like to think it was her way of letting us know she was happy and doing fine.

It is the opinion of many that those who have gone on, find it

The easiest to reach us when we sleep because it is then we are at our most relaxed and receptive to receiving information.

Can a dog do that? I don't know. I like to think its possible. I do know that love knows no boundaries.

I also am going to choose to believe that my little Mutt Thing was letting us know that she is happy and doing fine and that someday when I cross that veil that I will look down and see that wad of unruly hair with a wagging tail sticking out.

Never forget to love. Love is everything.

source

http://www.yourghoststories.com/real-ghost-story.php?story=25141