over stress or ghost visit

In our times today we have been so prone to stress because of this pandemic we are not our best self, I will tell you a story that has happened to me just last week I tell this because I believe it might be supernatural in nature or just my tired brain playing tricks on me.

I just had a long day even when we are forced to stay at home we still need to get out to do stuff at most but mostly  to remove the feeling we are stuck  and for me it is the worst one yet, So back to my story I just had a long day but I still need to finish some work to save energy I turned off the light the only light in my room was my  laptop so while I was typing I notice something in the corner of my eye it was a shadow not my stuff but a person standing in the corner but it was weird because he or whatever it was standing behind the table.

I stopped typing and look at it more closely but making sure it won’t notice me whatever it was I stared at it for a while then I was forced to blink and then it was gone, Just putting it because of overwork I saved what I was doing and went to sleep.

I suddenly felt my room feeling a lot colder like the cold is inside your body I look around and it was pitch black I tried to move my body but it wasn’t moving like I was stuck in a place I can only move my eyes so I scan the room what was happing I was forcing myself to relax and not to panic I was thinking this must just a dream.

Then my eyes adjusted to the darkness and standing at the foot of my bed was the shadow it was clearly a silhouette of a man but it was just shadow it was like a two dimensional drawing just standing there I can clearly see the flatness of it then I saw its hand reaching towards me and the shadow hand moving across my body and when it reaches my neck it began squeezing it I felt being light-headed.

Then suddenly I woke up and realized it was a just a nightmare but I was sure what I felt, Thankful I was able to move my body again, Curious to what has startled me awake the I heard a loud scratching at my door I stood up and opened it was my dog waiting outside my door and waltz in and slept near the place where the shadow was standing I extremely thanked full of my dog it must felt something was wrong in my room and made sure I was okay.

I petted my dog and he just looked at me and made himself comfy in the spot I laid down but still fear it might come back I tried not to sleep but I was exhausted and before I knew I fell asleep again.

I woke the next morning thank full that it didn’t happen again I looked around my the door was already open my mom must have let the dog out already but I promised myself to also let the dog sleep and my room and offer a prayer of thanks and protection so it might never happen again.

Some things are not meant to be

So it has come to my attention that my youtube channel has been removed and that means all my vids that upload here as well are gone its a sad day I put a lot of effort on those things I guess they do have a point those vids did break their guidelines and that is why I have decided to just re-upload them all in here and post them again here where the guidelines are much more lenient I may not earn money from here yet as most of it was generated from youtube but at least here I can post it again without fear of it being removed so after I post this one I will post some of the old vids that I have two in one day for fun I guess we can call it that also for manga yaoi lovers as well I am not really a writer, to be honest none of my family knows this which is good I have plenty of stuff here for them to give a solid reason giving me a gift before 500 pesos which is small already so enough about the sadness of today time for new stuff and things

coexistence Ch1( man x man)(Yaoi Manhwa)

Theme of the year is over all progress

Theme of the year

So 2020 what a year right it hasn’t even had its  second month and things are looking really interesting  I guess you can call it that I mean with all the things happing all at ones you can easily get lost in it all but I don’t want to focus on the negative things we have plenty of that already so I will tell what has been going on with me so as I have figured out that I have already in record time broke my new year resolution which was sleep earlier so that’s out of the window but I came upon a guide to help me on finishing the other ones which I hope it will be progressing in my life right now so what I learned is that the key to making good on new year resolution is that it shouldn’t be specific but instead it should be a theme yup as the title says “the theme is overall progress” as I was researching the goalkeeping  was not specifically the goal itself but the upward progress on oneself this is the reason why we do resolution like I will go to the gym from now on or I will stop smoking but we often fail it so instead of those specific things we just a put a theme on it like this year theme will be good health it won’t be automatic but as long as the progress we have is upward its good  and it must be kept  in a overall vague thing like choosing flavours from a ice cream shop example like that but  maybe going to the gym  isn’t really for you may be running or swimming or biking  is it is not gym but it still keeps the theme of the year right as specific new year resolutions can be constraining but a theme of the year can be an overall so throw away those resolution which I am pretty sure you failed already and put a theme on this year.

midnight thoughts

So lately i have not been able to sleep at night and i don't know why so because of this my mind wonders so much it is filled by random thoughts amazing not all negative so there a positive side on looking at the ceiling of your room till 1 am i guess my mind has a positive side good for me so about that during this time my mind is full of ideas that i might and will do in the time i would wake up because i am to tired to do it that time which can of weird since i am sleepy but can't sleep like this time only i have the energy to type this speaking of typing this i really need to get back to finishing that book i started it not that i amazing i think but it has solid stuff so it has that going for it and also not able to sleep during this time i searched the internet the reasons not all good so i need to adjust my self more after i do this i will try to sleep again i also learned that writing your ideas before going to bed is a nice thing and also cringy becuase i read it it the morning just crossing out what wont work or just fantsy of mine mosty all of them but still form time to time my brain farts out good ideas sometimes end up me making a little cash on the side all legal ofcourse speaking of money i am proud to say i earned big well bigger then the usual so thats good maybe its because i have a string of good choices thats why my btain is so active it want to make more not like the internet say i think there is a lot of uncertainty on me which is bad i am working on that so that is it for now join me again next time okay.

second video from the past

a little vid from my collection enjoy

my first video try its a yaoi video( if your into it enjoy if not please do not click)