REMINDER TO ME!!! Oct 3

Days comes and so does months I write here again to share my feelings and thoughts about almost everything I feel I should write so I wouldn't forget so here goes.
My life has been pretty okey I guess or messed up but in my standards is okey compare to this my graduation  years are fast approaching but yet I havent done anything yet I have plans but almost not al of them are not going well and not even progress even if I try I only wish that the future is better.
So I am currently taken I love him and I hope that he loves me to I am doing my best in both love and  life speaking of love I wish my mom would find herself a love life so that's what's up have a good day and peace.

Aug 16 long times and hopes

My days since the last post was kind of okey my schooling kind of bad I dropped my prinac 3 because I am shitty in accounting literally I don't know a thing about it I should just have finished it but that's all In the past so today our class was finished early I have written two new short story which needs still a little editing and fixing I want to write a novel or something like that and i need a new pic that's for sure so tonight I am going to drink because last week my mom didn't allowed it and everything I want hmmmp but this time I will get it my mom and I went to the dentist the other day to have my teeth check and to cleaning plus making plans for brace which will be done in oct or before so that's good news and after that my relation with Lester is in a I don't know phase and my ex is a major cheater and a liar of course I will need to hunt him down sooner or later hahaha I will droit in the lest excepted way that will be fun for sure but now i will need to get resources for me to get rich and with that I can make many things happen before I turn 25 I want 3 things which I hope I will get in the future first a graduation and stable job and a business and a partner for life so  so that when I am 30 I plan to do many things but still uncertain so that it hope it will continue to go my way wish me luck and have a great day I will post ASAP.

Aug 10 new ends and old beginnings!!!

Good day it has been two days since I posted I was sure I double checked making this my diary was not really best idea because I am not usually motivated to post so this in a basis on which I am feeling it or not I hope I find the motivation so the title says I planing to end something  which was being a little lazy I plan to finish all my school work now that's a good thing right so recently I found out my bf was using me for money sucks right he has shown any concern towards me only asking I should have realized that in the beginning but I was two kind i want to change my country but how it's to big so why not start with one self right and work up wards for me and my future I want to change all aspects of me starting from my physical mental and I little bit of. Emotional I just need a drive for me to continue what I want so I guess I will be looking at organizations on which I can help but first me time I need the disciple to do all of the things needed to be done I little about me I drop already my prinac 3 I know it's a cowards way I really don't know about accounting so I hope I can do it again  next term I will have a date Tom wish me luck other than that its all just disame I know my life needs excitement well that all for now thanks.

Aug 2 PDCA!!!

hello i just learned this just a while ago it about the PDCA of Edward deming its a process which we do everyday and we don't even realize it or it just me so PDCA stands for planing,doing, checking and acting see even by just looking at it its so obvious but i am still going to explain it so planing is the beginning of it before we do anything we plan right we do the 5 W or was it 4 anyways we do that we have a goals and ways to achieve that goal with minimum lost and great results that all our plan but to achieve that great result we need the check our actions and how we do it we do not do the checking after achieving our goals we do it while trying to achieve it so every step we are sure that we are in the right path and when there is a need of change do it in the most lest way possible so if its a mistake it wont affect the process so much and when all is done we act upon it and your thinking if you read it this far ahead what is the difference of doing and acting   acting if the finishing act after the checking is done where you decide whether to do that method again or do a even better way or just dumping it and start a new so hope this is a good one and yes i don't believe in periods have a good day ^_^

July 29 Kittens and Drama

Hi good evening or morning whatever day or time your reading this so today was kind of boring, fun and dramatic in a whole set so this what happened so today was a holiday  so I decided to sleep the whole morning and wake up later but my mom had other plans so she called and woke up us me and my brothers I was the first one up as always I had a argument about rest days and sudden planing so as early as 8am we were fighting but my mom always had the last word so I just followed and then came my borthers which we had a same feeling for this events and this was kind of one rare occasions which we all agree on something but its sort lived because had a talk about kittens which we agreed to give away but my eldest decide to keep one of it but I wanted to give it all considering his past relation on our family pets before.  I still don't know what plan to take I guess my mom has the last say so after all getting ready we went to our grandmother house which there is a suspicion and drama going on my grand is being suspected of having a relationship with a one of the old helper which was kind of weird his not that really attractive as in 0% my family in both side is as fucked up already at is it so there and my grandfather is still alive sick but still alive so there is a thing my Lola ignores sometimes my lolo which is kind of sad but that's life so my mom and her sister and brother are trying there best to fix it hope they succeed. After lunch we left I had a hair cut which is nice for me and i am going to give our kittens they deserve better and tonight I am watching a tele drama that can made me cry and felt sorry for the real wife so there's classes again Tom I hope it will be a great day so many things are in store for me lets hope for the best thanks for reading. Have a great day as well.

July 27 mall and idea day!!!

Hello so today has just one big trip and idea sprouting day well mostly all good ideas I think the day started like any other Sunday cleaning the house and talking after that we headed our different plans my oldest brother was going to stay at home while the second one was heading to a group meeting while being the youngest I was going with my mom to the mall the mall trip was good I few idea went to mind like burning a whole barangay for fun which is weird and the ideas of having rough lovemaking with a Russian guy I don't know where that came from. So when we arrived in the mall it was lunch time but my mom had other plans she wanted to be done before 3pm so we finished all the important stuff of our shopping trip i was hungry and I got another idea from reading a novel and an plan of mine I wanted my own laptop with personal things and stuff so about that I will continue civil service and my video plan so that about that and before we went home we went to wilcone a store for furnitures and stuff like that and we bought a cabinet there was no problem in it the problem was with  me yup me  when we got home and arranged it I keep messing up as in I dropped  containers and spoons and fork plus ever thing else I touch even the kittens poor kitten but were cool now after that hellish moment I went up here got dressed and posted this so that's it have a good day and keep loving.

July 20 Shadows at night!!!

Hello it has Been I think 3 days since I last posted here so this what happened to me last night. The time was around 10 pm when I went to sleep I slept we'll because of the cold surroundings which didn't bother me at first. Around 2:30 am I woke up with the feeling of uneasy ness because of a few reasons like the room was so cold and I wasn't using the ace just the electric fan and second the feeling of being watched because of this I wasn't really comfortable so I just keep moving in my bed when I noticed that room was somewhat different I still have a night light because a another incident which is a another story. So I stood up in bed and looked around and the feeling in the back of my head to keep looking its like a find it its obvious but still can't see it  so I decided just to sleep it in and ignore it the time was almost 3:00am and we had trip early morning so when I was about to sleep  it hit me there were shadows In the wall then it should be so decided to make sure I looked around again and I saw it it was a shadow of a man near the window  and the shadow shape seems a little familiar or i was just over thinking but what scared me the most was there was nobody in the window which stunned me for a while and after what seemed hours a hid in side my blankets and I said please go away again and again in whispers hoping  it will go and before a knew it i fell asleep. Wake ing up I wanted to tell my mom my experience that night but before I can my mom said that somebody visited her last night in a from of a shadow but there was two one with a aura of malicious ness and the other saddens and regret which it means that it went to  my mom  and she also said that it might have been one of it was my dad which died last year of cancer the scary part according to my mom she felt it went pass her and the feeling was cold and strange. And father that my brother went down and told us of how in his dream our father visited him telling him that he went to hell and was being punished by being trampled on for all eternity and the othe shadow was one who was a bad inlfuince his punishment was to be cut for all eternity hearing this I was that this was just a dream and my dad really didn't went there so after telling there softies I decide to keep mine a secret we were going on a trip after all and it was scary already as its so after feeling there stories we finished our breakfast and got ready door the day well that what's up with me so have a. Good day.